On Good Friday I went to church with Jon. I slept in a bit, so I had to rush to get there. Afterwards we hung around his house for a few hours. I fell asleep on the couch while he did some biology homework. Then we went to visit his grandma in the hospital. She's been doing very poorly, but there's always someone there with her. Later on we went to his family dinner gathering at his uncle's house. His little cousins were there, and one was just a toddler, so we had to constantly watch him to make sure he wasn't shoving something up his nose or in his mouth. Dinner was really good, and I had a good time, but had a headache and I was still really tired. After dinner Jon and I ended up passed out on the couch downstairs for an hour or so.

Not too much happened Saturday. I went with Jon to visit his grandma again during the day, and later we went to my house for dinner. In the evening we hung out with a few of his friends, played Winnipeg Monopoly, and watched the The Little Rascals. I love Buckwheat. So adorrablee. "I got a dollar, I got a dollar, I got a dollar hey hey hey hey"

On Sunday my sister, Melissa, and my nephew came over for Easter dinner. She labeled me as her entertainer all day and all evening haha. We played cards, I won of course. After dinner we watched A Series of Unfortunate Events. It was a really good movie, better than I expected! Then later on when mum went to bed, we watched LOTS of Coronation Street on my iMac.

My sister's dog, Missy, is so cute. She's such a little cuddly dog! Whenever I sit at the computer, she would jump up onto my lap and snuggle with me. My sister slept in my bed, and Missy slept in between us. I'm glad I didn't roll over and crush her! haha

A photo of her taken last year:


And then today, well technically yesterday (Monday), my sister and nephew stayed for the morning before they left, and we watched even more Corrie episodes! After they left, I hung around the house all day (no way was I going outside.. It decided to throw it down with snow today). I played a bit of Second Life, edited a few photos, and then watched even more Corrie episodes on my iMac. Later on when my mum was home, we had dinner and guess what.. We watched more Corrie! Except we watched the older episodes that she taped on tv. The ones we get on TV are around 9 months old.. But I've been watching the newer episodes on my computer.

I think I'm addicted.

Anyways, that was my weekend.


Recent photos:

I have a new blog.

http://brittanydonalyn.blogspot.com/

I had a blogger journal quite a while back that my sister helped me set up for my traditional art, but that was a few years ago, and I haven't used it since then. I like blogger.. I think I like it better than livejournal :P

A pretty well known digital artist, Princess-of-Shadows has used my photo "Elizabeth" for a photomanipulation. I adore what she did with it!


http://princess-of-shadows.deviantart.com/art/may-his-darkness-embrace-me-69468104

I have to say I'm really honored that she used my picture. I was shocked today to find it on the main page of deviantART under the Popular category. I've never had one of my pictures there since now. So it's pretty awesome! So far it has 3,503 favorites, so Liz is getting pretty famous!


Anyways, about my weekend:

The weekend went by pretty fast. Saturday night was fun, my boyfriend and I hung out with his friends. We almost got lost in the middle of no where on the way to a local concert, but found our way. Soon after we got there, we were bored and left (after I had my ice cream fix), and then drove downtown, and Jon's friend screamed random things at people on the streets. Reactions were hilarious. It's so immature, but extremely fun. He yelled "EAT FRESH" at a couple outside of Subway. We ended up going to a friend's house after that and staying there until almost 3am. This morning I went to church with Jon, and slept on his bed with ear plugs while he had a band practice later that afternoon.

So that was my eventful weekend. How was yours?

Self Portrait
Something that expresses how I feel lately


As Tall As Lions - "Maybe I'm Just Tired"

If love comes your way,
don't be afraid.
Unlock the box your heart's encased.
Hope it won't change
and beware of the games
that she'll want to start playing.
Oh lately babe
I stay awake thinking this life
gets lonely.

Well maybe I'm just scared,
scared to let you go.
I want you to know,
right from hello,
your love just kept me wondering.
Well maybe I'm just tired,
tired of never knowing.

I know i'm not good enough for you.

If I can be saved,
show me the way.
Help me help myself baby.
Don't be confused,
our love is true.
Just tell by the way I'm looking at you.

I don't know if it's just the weather or what.. but I feel horrible lately.

One minute I could be fine and happy, and the next I feel like I just don't know what to do with myself. There's never really any reason for it either.

I really don't know what to do with myself. I don't know what to do about my future, I don't know what to do right now. I thought I'd start feeling better about things once I got a job, a daily routine.. But I don't. I thought I could make new friends, have a life, once I got a job.. But that isn't going to happen. I work in a separate building than the actual store, with just one other person. All I do is put images onto gift items. It's like working in a factory like I did this summer, and that wasn't what I wanted when I was looking for a new job.

I changed my mind about Graphic Design at RRC, and decided I'm going to do Photography at PrairieView next year, but is that the right decision?! How far is that going to get me? The course is one year, and I doubt it's as good as any fashion photography courses would be far off somewhere else like England or British Columbia. I could never move away to go to Uni/College though. I have Jon, and my friends. But what if that is holding me back, and someday when I'm old and poor I regret not doing something like that. What if I could be wonderful at what I do, but staying here I would never know?

That's the problem with anything I do, if I'm not the best at it, I'm not satisfied. If I have a career in photography, I don't want to just have a little studio business and take boring wedding and children photos every day. I want my pictures to be creative, amazing, admired, in magazines, galleries! I know that's not very likely, but I want to be the best I can, and I don't think Winnipeg will do that for me.

I always think about changing things about myself, and how everything would be better that way. Like, if I went to a far away school I'll be great, or if I changed the way I look I'll be prettier, if I act this way people will like me better, and if I do all these things I might like myself better.. Sometimes I really hate myself.

I don't usually like change, but I feel like I want and need to shift my world.

I don't want to be a failure. I'm terrified.

I dyed my hair brown :) (it's just a one month temporary dye.. I'm going back red after haha)




I love watching "So You Think You Can Dance", and this one dancing couple, Lacey and Kameron danced to "Dancing" by Elisa. It's suuuch a good song.

I really want to skate to it. <3

I decided to submit a photo to JPG Magazine. Please support me by voting for it :)

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Survey time.


01. Youre in the hospital, who on your top 4 comes to visit you?
Jon

02. If alcohol were banned, what would your reaction be?
I'd be sad that there would be no more Baileys Irish Cream

03. Your CD collection is repossessed. But you may keep one.
I'd keep my Sarah McLachlan cd. hehe

04. Do you believe world peace is possible?
never

05. I'm a genie. Name your wish.
I wish I could be brilliant at whatever I strive to be...

06. Name one thing about the opposite sex that automatically turns you off.
selfishness

07. Name one thing about the opposite sex that automatically turns you on?
Eyes
Personality
Smile

08. Speaking of sex, what did you think about Brokeback Mountain?
never saw it.

09. What are you obsessive about?
photography, lord of the rings, random things (haha i just rhymed)

10. Leatherface is in the kitchen. what do u do?
who the heck is that?

11. Do people underestimate you?
All the time.

12. When you're in a bad mood, what will always put you in a better mood?
hmm.. nothing really :|

13. Honestly, do you talk about myspace in real life?
haha i guess it comes up occasionally

14. Have you met someone online in person?
Yep, for a photoshoot

15. What do you hope to have accomplished by the end of the year?
To become more advanced in my photography concepts

16. Do you believe minimum wage should be raised?
of course

17. What is the background on your computer?
my little cousin, mia, with fairy wings.. she's soo cuuute

18. Do you have any really crazy relatives?
haha yes

19. Pretend you're 15ft deep in beer. Describe what you would be doing.
gagging

20. Does everyone in your life know the real you?
No?

21. Last thing you said?
um.. goodnight I think

22. What is the most ridiculous fear you have?
Needles.. I can't see them, or have them in me without flipping out. EW EW EW

23. Who was the last person to hug you?
Jonathan

24. When is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly?
PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME PEANUT BUTTER JELLY TIME
k, today actually lol

25. When did you last have a home-cooked meal?
today

26. Have you ever gotten naked at a party?
never. jeeze

27. Who do you miss?
All of my friends, who I never see anymore... I miss being in highschool

28. Are you named after a grandparent?
no

29. Does someone love you?
Jonathan!

30. What was the last thing you ate?
Pickles with cheese and crackers haha

31. How do you feel RIGHT now?
bleh

32. Have you driven anywhere today?
to skating

33. Whats your hair like?
messy, cause of skating practice

34. Whose car were you in last?
mine

35. Where did u go?
to skating...

36. Do you vote?
haha i could, but i don't

37. Are you a vegetarian?
semi-vegetarian. I don't like most meat, it's disgusting. Especially beef

38. Do you like alligators?
no, they hafe teef.

39. Which of the Marley brothers do you like best?
Never heard of them

40. Do you have to get your wisdom teeth out?
haha.. I got them out a few weeks ago.

41. Ashley or Mary-Kate?
both?

42. Favorite tv show growing up?
hmm.. mr rodgers and seaseme street

43. Do you have a tan?
never

44. Where were you two hours ago?
sitting here

45. Life... How do you feel about it?
horrible. I want it to get better

46. Do you own a pair of uggs?
what?

47. Do you want kids?
eventually

48. What's your favorite junk food?
chocolate.. M&Ms.. mmmmm

49. Who was the last person who messaged you?
Liz

50. Are you taller than 5'6?
I'm shorter.. 5'4

I'm going through the pictures I took while in England, and uploading some over the next while.. I'm so lazy, there's so many good ones that I haven't used yet haha

Mia Lily


James & Mia


And a self portrait taken in England

I haven't done an actual photomanipulation for so long.. I have been working in this one bit by bit over the last week, and I had no idea how it was going to turn out. I just kept thinking of new ideas.

But anyways, it sort of expresses my feelings..



Nine Inch Nails - The Fragile

she shines
in a world full of ugliness
she matters
when everything is meaningless

fragile
she doesn't see her beauty
she tries to get away
sometimes
it's just that nothing seems worth saving
I can't watch her slip away

I won't let you fall apart

she reads the minds of all the people that pass her by
hoping someone can see
if I could fix myself I'd -
but it's too late for me

I won't let you fall apart

we'll find the perfect place to go where we can run and hide
I'll build a wall and we can keep them on the other side
...but they keep waiting
...and picking

it's something I have to do
I was there too
before everything else
I was like you

I miss synchronized skating. I miss getting dressed up for competitions. I miss high school and seeing friends every day. I miss band trips. I miss going to the library. I miss my long hair sometimes. I miss my family in England. I miss the summer. I miss the beach. I miss staying up late and being creative in photoshop. I miss my inspiration. I miss my group of friends. I miss playing TSO. I miss going on trips for synchro competitions. I miss the cookies from the cafeteria. I miss scottish dancing. I miss my childhood friends from Beausejour. I miss seeing Jon every day. I miss the band trip to Chicago. I miss being a little kid when things seemed simple. I miss scones and yorkshire pudding. I miss english pubs. I miss laying on the couch and watching movies with my boyfriend. I miss weekends when friends would come over and hang out in the basement. I miss bonfires. I miss daily routine. I miss my old skating coach. I miss lunch time in the halls with friends. I miss painting my mural in the hall way and drinking chocolate milk from the cafeteria during art class. I miss going to the quarry with Jon. I miss 4th period spares. I miss alot of things..